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Cesare Borgia ([personal profile] cardinalsinned) wrote2013-01-16 09:08 pm
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wake up time

[ This is probably the second worst way to wake up, in a hospital bed with Juan there watching. ]

What... happened to me?
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-27 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
Come in, I know you've been waiting to have words with me
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-28 04:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I believe you were the one who admitted that you would never abide by our previous agreement.
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-29 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
There are a number of ways to view what you've said, Cesare.
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-29 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
I have reservations about your words. Are you giving ground or merely hiding an insult underneath? It could be either. I do know this, that our previous efforts at reconciliation have failed, and you act as though you would have no interest in trying them again. I am tired of these constant trials that end only in nothing when all the debris has been swept away. This provides peace and it has become abundantly clear that I will get none otherwise at this time. My brother frets, and you seethe, but I will not keep fighting a battle that holds no gain for the family or me.
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-30 10:49 am (UTC)(link)
[going quiet for almost too long, really]

Some time ago, I can barely remember now, I spoke with our brother of family duty. I asked if the Borgia name held more value, or the happiness of the family members themselves. At the time both he and I came to the agreement that since our legacy was secured and our name would not die, we could live as we wished and forge our own destinies.

...I wonder at how I've changed so much in so little time. I wonder if the papacy of our father was worth it all. Both of us were born and guided by his hand to suit the path he cut for us, but... but what if his plans had not come to pass? I can not imagine myself in any other role than a soldier, and there would have been no armies for you to have conspire to lead, but what is the greater price our family has paid? On the days our father sat in conclave, our family stood at a crossroads that few of us truly saw.

On one trail we could have let matters lie, and we would have to live in a world where all our plans had been thrown into chaos. Our father would be devastated, perhaps even wrathful, but I do not doubt that he would begin more plans anew, and see what could be salvaged and saved. On the other was the path we chose, the well-trod route that we had practiced for in all our years. But we did not know how it would tax us, and we were blind and dumb to the extent of the change it would bring... or perhaps simply I was. I remember our mothers' concern.

[A bit of a derisive laugh]

Perhaps we should have heeded it.
Edited 2013-01-30 11:39 (UTC)
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-02-01 05:30 pm (UTC)(link)
So it could be, but I would ask your advice on how I can look towards the future I have left as well.
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-02-02 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh god, here it comes]
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-02-02 06:31 am (UTC)(link)
... I would hear them, first.
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-02-03 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
For such a request, you know the only thing that I have to compare.
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-02-03 05:19 am (UTC)(link)
Then I will speak plainly. I have been wronged and the one who performed the act wishes to quiet my words about it. I will assume that you will next request that we do not speak of december, then of your actions about Forli, and then finally of the nun. Perhaps there are more. You are trying to bargin away your guilt, and while I would give you the nun, the others still need to be spoken about, though not in they ways we have spoken of them.

But if you want a trade in kind, I would tell you that what we never speak of again is what has placed me here.
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[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-02-03 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
Before you go, I would know which of those you would include.

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