cardinalsinned: (That one time was kind of weird)
Cesare Borgia ([personal profile] cardinalsinned) wrote2013-01-16 09:08 pm
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wake up time

[ This is probably the second worst way to wake up, in a hospital bed with Juan there watching. ]

What... happened to me?
maleborgia: (two centuries too early for this joke)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-21 10:53 am (UTC)(link)
Then explain it to me, or tell me what you see.
foundjuanting: (Rays of light shone down on me)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-21 11:20 am (UTC)(link)
It's... warmth, more than warmth truly. It is a feeling of being disconnected from your pain, oh you can still feel the edges of it, but it does not matter. You can look upon it and all your life as though you were a scholar reading over a text. Your senses grow sharp, the flicker of a light in the darkness takes on a countless number of sights you missed before, the smoke gains an elegance and grace that we so often overlook. You can feel the grain of wood and every raised detail and carved dip of what you touch, and the color and sound that goes ignored comes to the front and invites you to see, hear, and touch.

Rest comes easily, even to a troubled mind, and the dreams on the rim of that sleep are so vivid that even on waking you must ask yourself where each could be separated, if only for a moment. Memories rise up, quickly and then run away, but each one is as clear as when they first occurred. Every feeling from joy, to wonder, and even strangely to pain and tears, all of them are there to relive again. It is though all of your life is before you, and you could pluck each sight and travel through the ages, if only for a moment.

Words flow naturally, and the emotions of others become clear, each gesture and tone gaining meaning where there was so much more missed before. Time feels differently, and there is only the feeling of peace and calm, and the sedate wonder at the nature of our world.

Lessening of pain... is a vast understatement.
Edited 2013-01-21 11:21 (UTC)
maleborgia: (What about this assassin's brotherhood?)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-21 11:24 am (UTC)(link)
Others become clear, or you perceive them to be so?

I'm not accusing you of being wrong, I am curious which it is.
foundjuanting: (And as the spotlights fade away)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-21 11:30 am (UTC)(link)
Perhaps it is both, but it's much how if one closes their eyes... their hearing becomes sharp. In cutting away the troubles of the world, you become more aware of the inflection in the voice, the tenseness of a form, the expressions that normally are only there and gone in one moment.
Edited 2013-01-21 11:32 (UTC)
maleborgia: (dedicated a treatise on syphilis to him)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-21 08:27 pm (UTC)(link)
How much do you remember when it wears off?
foundjuanting: (Default)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-21 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
It all depends, sometimes it is no more than the memory of a dream, and sometimes it is clear as the day itself.
maleborgia: (two centuries too early for this joke)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-21 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
And how do you know that day is not itself a more fully remembered dream?
foundjuanting: (Default)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-21 11:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Sometimes that is difficult... but only when you indulge after having no rest for a while.
maleborgia: (brb conquering the Romagnol)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-21 11:35 pm (UTC)(link)
What else affects it?
foundjuanting: (And as the spotlights fade away)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-22 01:32 pm (UTC)(link)
The type and purity of what you have chosen, how you choose its' means, what you have consumed before or after... like today. I should not have had wine, but I would not have our other brother know of this. It is easier for him to smell it on my form, but it lessens the effects, and I have been short of breath.

...And light-headed, that has not happened before.
maleborgia: (pic#5563671)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-22 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
I doubt that is the wine, Juan, that's the result of you mixing multiple things together.
foundjuanting: (Default)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-23 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
I did not think it would be so severe.
maleborgia: (dedicated a treatise on syphilis to him)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-23 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
Now you know not to do it again. Do you need me to send for a doctor?
foundjuanting: (Default)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-23 04:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Shifting a bit uncomfortably]

If it grows worse, but if our brother would find out, than simply find a way to end the problem.
maleborgia: (and forgive us our trespasses)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-23 05:18 am (UTC)(link)
He doesn't even know I am back yet. *pause, thinking* I'll go meet with him. I have things to talk him about anyway and I'll likely surprise him if you've convinced him I've been missing. He won't notice if you are seeing a physician then.
foundjuanting: (I have regained my breath)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-23 05:28 am (UTC)(link)
That is good... quite good even. We quarreled, so he will assume I have gone out to drink again.

[Give him a bit, and he's not going to be looking so good, yeah]
maleborgia: (Aquinas. Just some light reading.)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-23 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
Would it be better for you to meet here or elsewhere? *this question is more to himself than to Juan* Elsewhere, but I don't know if I will be able to move you on my own to the hospital, although it is nearer now. The quickest way is right through the middle of the square, however, and I'm sure you would not care for that. *dialing*
foundjuanting: (Default)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-23 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
[Drowsing a bit]

Whatever you think best, brother. I care little about it now.
maleborgia: (and forgive us our trespasses)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-23 05:40 am (UTC)(link)
Then I hope you will not change your mind halfway through this. *standing up, walking to the other end of the room while he is on the phone*
maleborgia: (looking for my Rubicon)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-23 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
Because you are my younger brother, and oppositional in addition.
foundjuanting: (Default)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-23 06:18 am (UTC)(link)
But you are worried, more so than you show, so there is no malice in what you will do.
maleborgia: (he had no mind for ecclesiastical affair)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-23 08:13 am (UTC)(link)
I just told you that you are my brother; of course there is no malice.
foundjuanting: (Default)

[personal profile] foundjuanting 2013-01-23 08:17 am (UTC)(link)
I mean even after this. You will scowl and snap at me later in the hospital, and find new ways to keep me from this peace, but you rage because you have not yet found a way to control this.
maleborgia: (Pens. Lances. Just call it a penis.)

[personal profile] maleborgia 2013-01-23 08:27 am (UTC)(link)
I will yell at you because I wish to and because you frustrate me by forcing me to take such steps. *off the phone, pulling Juan up* Come, we are going outside.

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