wake up time

[cardinalsinned]

[ This is probably the second worst way to wake up, in a hospital bed with Juan there watching. ]

What... happened to me?

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[cardinalsinned]

She reacted poorly to the news of her husband's death.

[foundjuanting]

That you caused.

[cardinalsinned]

That she requested.

[foundjuanting]

If she requested, then why did she run?

[cardinalsinned]

Some facets of the female mind are simply unknowable.

[foundjuanting]

That is so, but this is less the matter of the female mind and more the confusions of your guilty heart.

[cardinalsinned]

You insist there is guilt where I feel none.

[foundjuanting]

There is anguish on your face brother, tell me without a drop of lies to yourself or me that it is so.

[cardinalsinned]

It. Is. So.

[foundjuanting]

That is murderous desire, not truth.

[cardinalsinned]

Nothing I can say will satisfy you, I do not know why I should bother.

[foundjuanting]

Then if this bothers you, make the deal. My silence on this, for your silence about the stableboy.

[cardinalsinned]

You would exchange a misunderstanding for a blatant murder. How can I agree to that?

[foundjuanting]

Because there was misunderstanding in mine as well. You knew that not only was I drunk, but that eve I had spoken of the matter in passing to our father, and he was repulsed by the idea. Then I did what I thought I must for the family, though now I would have weighed the matter for longer before deciding what would be the best choice.

[cardinalsinned]

Does that mean you're truly sorry for what you did?

[foundjuanting]

I've said that I lost sight of what I discovered the first time that I was here. Had I let the stableboy live, Lucrezia would have been happy. Though our father would have been angered and that servant would have continued to lay hands on our dear sister, our father would recover and at least that piglet could have a father to live with when it was older.

[cardinalsinned]

He would not have laid hands on her again. Do you think I would have let him, after making him agree to leave forever?

[foundjuanting]

I have little faith in his honesty or common sense. He did come to Rome.

[cardinalsinned]

Have faith in me then, and my faithful pet. Would we allow it?

[foundjuanting]

You allowed it the first time, but in this case I can trust that you wouldn't allow it a second.

[cardinalsinned]

If you had thought for a moment you would have seen it. Or at least seen fit to ask.

[foundjuanting]

You never told it to me

[cardinalsinned]

It is too late now.

[foundjuanting]

You could have told me on the night of, and kept me from further action, but yes, you are right.

But it does make it a mistake made.

[cardinalsinned]

There is nothing either of us can do at this point.